Surrender to the Great I AM

My dad lost his job --> My family might move from the place we called home for over 20 years --> I can't commit to a job this summer because I don't know where my "house" will be --> If I can't make money, how will I survive and thrive in this world?

So many thought swirl through my head when I try to make plans for the future. Instead of worrying or forcing things to work, I need to surrender to His plan, His perfect and wonderful plan. Needless to say, Jer. 29:11-13 screams for my attention. So as I dwell in HIS word, here is a song that shares my thoughts...

"Surrender" by Barlowgirl

My hands hold safely to my dreams

Clutching tightly not one has fallen

So many years I've shaped each one
Reflecting my heart showing who I am

Now you're asking me to show
What I'm holding oh so tightly

Can't open my hands can't let go
Does it matter?

Should I show you?
Can't you let me go?

Surrender, surrender you whisper gently

You say I will be free
I know but can't you see?
My dreams are me. My dreams are me

You say you have a plan for me
And that you want the best for my life

Told me the world had yet to see

What you can do with one
That's committed to Your calling

I know of course what I should do

That I can't hold these dreams forever
If I give them now to You
Will You take them away forever?

Or can I dream again?

Surrender, surrender you whisper gently

You say I will be free
I know but can't you see?
My dreams are me. My dreams are me....

You are the Potter and I am the Clay

This weekend I helped out with my old youth group's retreat. To put it nicely, it was a long weekend. I kept worrying about how I was going to finish my homework or how I could minister to these kids. For a while it seemed like the discussions were going no where and I had no energy to do any homework. At the lowest point I decided to give it up to God. funny how when your are at the bottom all you can do is look up and guess who is at the top. I'll give you a hint, it's not a human, but it's GOD. Once i gave him my worries and problems, he was able to show me that he is not done molding me. Interestingly enough one of the major themes of the weekend was letting God hold and mold you. Here are some lyrics that really express the relationship between me and God.

**I decided not to post the whole song because the song is actually a love song. I just wanted to point out where I felt God talking to me...

"Learning How to Bend" by CArry Allan

I'm still learning how to pray
Trying hard not to stray
Try to see things your way
I'm still learning how to pray
I'm still learning how to trust
It's so hard to open up
And I'd do anything for us
I'm still learning how to trust

Chorus:
I'm still learning how to bend
How to let you in
In a world full of tears
We'll conquer all our fears
I'm still learning how to fly
I wanna take you higher
I'll be there till the end
I'll be your lover and your friend
I'm still learning how to bend

I'm just trying to understand
It's all in someone else's hands
There's always been a bigger plan
But I don't need to understand

Stranded

So we just watched a documentary of the crash in the Andes Mts. It really made me think about death and how unpredictable life can be. One minute you can be joshin' around on an airplane and the next your stranded by by dead loved ones in the Andes. One of the men from the documentary stated that his only regret was not being able to say goodbye before he died. To prep us for this documentary, our professor asked us what we would do if we only had 24 hrs to live. I have been asked that many times and every time i want the same thing: be with my loved ones and say my personal goodbyes. This time it was a little different because I am in a foreign country and there is no possible way to go home and be with my loved ones. This song, for some random reason, gave me comfort with this question. So if I die young.. just do what the song says lol

"If I Die Young" The Band Perry

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7NJqUN9TClM

** I wrote this when I was studying abroad in Uruguay and posted it on FB. I thought it would be a good first song...

S-I-N-G

Have you ever watched Miss Congeniality? At one point in the movie she uses an acronym SING for a self defense move. I found this very funny at the time but I never really thought about how I do the same thing. Singing is a way that I praise God, but it is also self defense against the devil.

One of my favorite things to do is listen to the radio. Now combine my love for singing, listening to music and methodical thinking, and boom this blog was born. So sit back, relax, read if you like and listen to some music...