SIf you saw me today, you would probably think that I am very busy but doing alright. That is far from the truth. I use my business as an excuse/mask to hide the real problem (running away from God). I'm not quite sure which path to take so I just turned my back away from the "love of my life."
I don't really know when it started, but somehow Jesus became my almost lover. It's not easy because no matter how hard I try to run from Him, I can't escape Him. I see Him in sunsets, selfless acts, kind words from friends, starry nights.... the list goes on. I know I will be reunited with him someday, I just don't know when or how. Sometimes I feel like Jonah because I think I out ran God, but then I see something spectacular and realize that running from God is impossible.
^the view on my way to school (a.k.a. my whale that swallowed me whole)
Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy
...I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot try the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind...
